So I go to my COG class last night and we talk about Learned vs. Inherited behavior, Nature vs. Nurture, if you will. I think about my behaviors as they were pre-incarceration, during and post-incarceration. I believe I really had an epiphany last night. Many of the behaviors I operated with a few years ago, no longer work for me and I have discarded them. That was pretty refreshing; although, I do still want to “go there” sometimes. It’s a good thing that I realize it now and can rephrase those thoughts. It’s funny how we “take on” the lingo of our current learning situation. I believe it shows adaptability, or maybe just institutionalization? I prefer adaptability, as this gives me hope for the human condition.
I often wonder “what am I doing here?”; what I do know is I KNOW I never want to repeat this experience, it has been valuable to me and my growth as a soul.
